It’s sort of my fault too. I mean i give (close person to me) shit about how its his fault for his life being sucky too. But yeah i sorta feel like i’ve been my own downfall. It’s almost as if i am saying the same exact words i would tell him.
Things in my life have progressed in a rather clouded manner. I make decisions i normally wouldn’t make, and yet when i make them i am aware of that.
I feel as if my overall self has declined in quality, which to me is pretty sad.
how do i go back to being rudi reyna, and not this person i dont want to be?
or am i just being a little bitch and making a big deal of things. ha